I can do better than this.
As much as I wish I could find contentment in my daily life, it eludes me. I think it's because I thought that I'd have it figured out by now. That I wouldn't still be getting hammered a couple of nights a week or living in some podunk town in the Central Valley of California. I thought I'd be on my way to a fulfilling career and not living paycheck to paycheck anymore. I thought I'd eat healthily and work out regularly and travel often.
That's not the case. At all.
Though I have many, many blessings in my life and I think of them often, I still can't help feeling that I can do better than this.
But where to start?
Instead of grand proclamations, I am going back to the basics.
Cooking myself a healthy, green dinner. Saying no to the emotional eating that wants to take over.
I'm applying to jobs that are a step in the right direction. And cleaning my damn house.
Basically, I'm doing better.
Because I can do better.
I commend you. I am right there with you wanting to embrace what I know is right FOR ME. I also want to love myself with the way I believe I can choose, I am strong enough to..., and living out what I know is healthy for me- whether it is emotional eating that eats away at my ambitions, or giving myself the freedom to NOT workout or take a nap when I am stressed out. I am very encouraged by ur writing and can relate to you on so many levels :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Kaylan! I love your comment :) We face so many similar struggles, but so many of us are afraid to admit them. This blog has been a great opportunity for me to share the way I actually feel. Best of luck to you!!
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