I had gone above and beyond enough that I knew I didn't have to worry about losing my job, but a performance review wracks my nerves every time. It follows the same format for me:
"It's impressive that you did this and that.
But,
*sucks in breath*
you need to stop caring so much about the work you do.
Don't take it personally when people don't follow-up or care about your ideas.
Try to separate yourself from the work so that you're not emotionally connected to the outcomes so much."
To the corporate and non-profit world, this is my failing:
I care too much about my work.
That's why I feel like a misfit. Like I'll never really be happy in a 9-5 because the why matters so much to me. It's the reason I tend to start strong and fizzle out when I have trouble putting my name in front of an organization because the work they do doesn't align with my personal ethics.
Thankfully, I finally accept that I don't fit.
Instead of forcing my round self into a square box, I'm creating my own template. I'm growing my freelancing and writing and starting a new website that focuses on healthy living.
Why?
I believe that we're all capable of much more than we're doing for ourselves, but we have allowed others to strip us of our power.
We're scared.
We need a normal someone to show us by example that we're capable of great things.
I want to use my words and my life to be that example.
I care too much about it to waste my time doing anything else.
"I care too much about it to waste my time doing anything else."
ReplyDeletePreach! Here's to acceptance of our own templates!