I had gone above and beyond enough that I knew I didn't have to worry about losing my job, but a performance review wracks my nerves every time. It follows the same format for me:
"It's impressive that you did this and that.
*sucks in breath*
you need to stop caring so much about the work you do.
Don't take it personally when people don't follow-up or care about your ideas.
Try to separate yourself from the work so that you're not emotionally connected to the outcomes so much."
To the corporate and non-profit world, this is my failing:
I care too much about my work.
That's why I feel like a misfit. Like I'll never really be happy in a 9-5 because the why matters so much to me. It's the reason I tend to start strong and fizzle out when I have trouble putting my name in front of an organization because the work they do doesn't align with my personal ethics.
Thankfully, I finally accept that I don't fit.
Instead of forcing my round self into a square box, I'm creating my own template. I'm growing my freelancing and writing and starting a new website that focuses on healthy living.
I believe that we're all capable of much more than we're doing for ourselves, but we have allowed others to strip us of our power.
We need a normal someone to show us by example that we're capable of great things.
I want to use my words and my life to be that example.
I care too much about it to waste my time doing anything else.